Posted by Jonathan on Jun 20, 2009 in
Uncategorized HURLLLL!!!
There’s a good kind of vomit.
Every day, I wake up and go about my business. I’ll go to work, or more recently, class, and go though the motions of life. Like anyone else, I try to be the best Christian I can be. Some days I’m good, and some days I’m not so good. And at the end of the day, I go to sleep, so that I can repeat this process anew tomorrow.
Sound familiar?
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Tags: burdens, hurt, pain, vomit
Posted by Jonathan on Jan 31, 2009 in
General
Go see it!
I just walked out of Gran Torino, Clint Eastwood’s latest movie. Clint is one of my favorite directors, I think because though his movies are often dark, they generally also speak of hope and redemption. Gran Torino is no exception to this rule. You should definitely see it, but this isn’t a review.
In the movie someone dies, and that’s all I’ll say for fear of spoiling it.
Death.
The word has a certain dry tone, it lies flat as it crawls out your mouth. It lays on your heart, even after the word leaves your lips.
What is it that hurts so much about death? Even the mere mention of it can incite a quivering in one’s voice. Often we try to ignore it, to hide it, to pray it goes away. Why does it hurt?
I know that for me there are many reasons, but I think some stand out amongst the lot. Perhaps the reason for myself is that I realize that we have a limited time and a limited ability to fix things, to right the world.
Every time a friend or family member of mine dies, I face several emotions. I’m sad they’re gone, but I do know that now they’re spending the rest of eternity in perfect fellowship with Him who is called “I am.”. That always gives me great comfort.
What always challenges me, is to look upon the life of another, and see their accomplishments for the Kingdom, and wonder what I am to be doing?
I am not someone who’s wonderful at dealing with death and pain, but because of my medical history, I’ve had to get good at dealing with it. The ultimate result is that death and pain have to serve a purpose for me, they had to enable and empower me.
Some day my parents will die, and at that time I may not feel the same. Some day my sister will pass away, and I may question it all.
But I can’t help but feel like there is more to death than we see. Perhaps it is the way it affects families and loved ones.
It’s hard, you’re never going to see that person again. And we don’t stop missing them, we just have to move on.
But it is our ideas regarding death that are the biggest question of all.
If…
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Tags: death, Gran Torino, loss, pain